So in the last year...well not even a year, more like 6 months, I have put on 15 pounds. Now as much as I am really happy to have a figure...I had to go out and buy all sort of new Jeans as I couldn't fit into anything. Now that I am back I am determined to exercise to get toned up. I don't want to lose weight cause I'm happy with the extra baggage....but I wanna have more energy. Now as I am typing this, I have a treadmill in front of me screaming "GET OFF YOUR BUTT".
So this new move has also inspired me to feel better on the inside and look better on the outside. This obviously involves me doing good things for myself.
As much as I know Ryan likes my new figure....I need to love myself too. So this whole journey is about loving me again not just loving someone else. I think the biggest problem people make, especially women is that we love our partner soo much that we tend to overlook ourselves sometimes. You have to keep in mind that he or she fell in love with you because of who you are as a person and your confidence. You cannot lose that over time or they will see a different person. I changed a lot in the last 2 years...some of the changes I don't like very much and that is precisely why I made this choice. I need to find me again...even if me is 15 lbs heavier :-)
It's still okay though that I have a "snuggle" chat with Ryan before bed though....cause thats a big part of me too ;-)
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