I feel so professional!!

I have been quiet for a while. I apologize. The reason is, I have been on edge about a job. And well, now I can talk about it! I applied with At&t for a new media sales position and I got the job. I am officially getting my paperwork today and by next week will have signed my life away. I will have 1 weeks training in Charlotte and 4 weeks in Atlanta, Georgia. After that I get to begin this awesome journey making lots of money and meeting some great people. I am hoping to get a new car by the end of my training as I will need it for work.

I was apprehensive about the position at first, but after my interview and then a ride along with one of the sales reps, I feel loads more comfortable about it. I had a lot of questions that were answered and made me feel that I would fit great in this position.

With the company being so big and wide known, I am excited about the idea of growing with such a great company. I could learn so much from this.

Wish me luck on this amazing new journey!!

The Sun and I are best friends again...bless him!

So I have had job progress today...im not gonna go into detail cause I don't want to jinx it. But I have high hopes that Ill be making a lot money very soon.

On another subject, I am trying to decide what to do about my hair. It is long again, but I want it longer, maybe. However as for the color I am a bit conflicted. I like it blond but honestly it was such a hassle to keep it up...I hate spending 75.00 every 2 months to get the roots done...hmmm. So I am either going back to dark brown or I am sticking with the current look which is about 8 different shades or brown, red, and blonde. I am clearly confused :-)

One good thing to look forward to is the gorgeous weather outside. I am going to spend this week laying out in the sunshine with hopes of looking less pasty. It is so obvious that I have been in England that its ridiculous. I look like a cancer patient or albino. It's awful...I need my freckles back pronto! But finally the weather is warming up and there is soo much sunshine, I could tell my friend the sun missed me...he won't leave now :p

March is fast approaching now and I have soo much to look forward to in the next 3 months I just can't wait! I just wish I could tell everyone what it is...but I have been sworn to secrecy so it must be done. I'll just keep you all guessing.

P.S. Driving is so liberating! I have been driving as much as possible and it feels like I never stopped! The only thing I can complain about are the New York drivers here....u people are absolutely ridiculous! NO U CANNOT CUT ME OFF! And get off my tail....other than that it has been perfect!

I would much rather be ur Groundhog than ur Valentine...

I have always thought Valentine's Day was silly. No it is not because most of them I have spent alone...I mean I have had someone the last 3 years and well I still don't care for the holiday..kind of like Halloween, I have outgrown it. I am one of those people that feels that you should not have a day just to say I love u....it should be everyday!!

Well anyway, this V Day, my Valentine is quite far away, 3,000 miles to be precise. Am I sad and depressed, eating ice cream and crying all day, well no. Instead I will probably eat pop-tarts and work on finding a job. I don't really care for all the pink...it truly is my least favorite color.

I had a nice video chat with Ryan today...we have decided to do that every Sunday...it is nice to see each other...so you know we don't forget how hot we both are :D

He gave me the best present ever this year even though technically it wasn't for VDAY...it was just him being Ryan...and no I am not saying what it is because it is a surprise and you will all find out eventually. Last year he broke into my bedroom at my house and left me red roses next to a framed pic of us on my bed...then made dinner. That was in itself a total surprise...he knows how much I despise the day..and well so does he.

Everyone reading needs to realize, Ryan is not emotional or sentimental to say the least...he is English..which means he's a bit stern(that is putting it nicely). However, he does have a heart deep, DEEEP, within his chest and it does occasionally show itself...case in point the flowers.

That is what I love about him...he doesn't have to do anything...but he still does and he does so very randomly.

So I say this...everyone enjoy your VDay..but just ask urself...does he love u everyday or just that one day a year? I know my answer....

Bless my little Kane...he can be my Groundhog :-) *Thanks to Rob for this wonderful photo <3

I was born for city life...

I got back from New Orleans on Monday night and by Tuesday I had fallen in love with the city all over again. I went out in Charlotte as I had a few interviews for jobs. I was really excited. Walking around in my black dress pants and heels I felt like Victoria Beckham without the pout...

I got to see the corporate world at its very best. Young twenty somethings walking around in suits carrying a Starbucks and chatting with co-workers. I saw this throughout the Bank of America building as well as Wells Fargo and Wachovia. I began daydreaming about working and being successful.

My Uncle pointed out condo buildings which were massive and gorgeous standing alongside the skyscrapers...its a pretty amazing dream. I really hope it comes true.

I could see my day to day life lit up for me...working in these gorgeous glass buildings, having lunch at some great cafe or pub and then going out to one of the many great restaurants and bars in Charlotte with coworkers...all while talking about how much money I will make this year.

I truly was born for city life...

I have a lot to look forward to in the next 3 months...it's gonna be very exciting.

Sunshine and daisies...Punxsutawney Phil says so!

So it is superbowl sunday! Hard to believe it has been a year since my Saints won their first superbowl...its been a year since a lot of things. A year ago, I was a mess...fighting with Ryan and fighting with myself on what to do in life.

A year later, I must say 2011 is soo much better. As much as I miss little bits of my time in New Romney...really the only way I could be happy there is if Ryan spent 100% of his time with me...and well thats just stupid. Here I have more than him to keep me company. I have sunshine, flowers, the beach, friends, family (as much as they drive me mental), and the American dream. All this is keeping me going. Winter will be gone soon...the groundhog didn't see his shadow and well he is always right. It is so nice to have beautiful weather again and I look forward to wearing shorts, flip flops and a bikini again.

I had a soppy day yesterday...sobbed on the phone to Ryan about how much I miss him but still deep down counting the days until I would see him again. I go back to Charlotte tomorrow and I couldn't be happier...my new life is there now. I have an interview on Tuesday for a job I really want...hopefully it pays what I want too.

Spring is coming and with it comes a new smile on my face...May will be here soon and I will have something to look forward to. I have decided to go to England for my graduation in July. Ill look into flights once I have a job. I am excited to go in summer and I get to see Ryan and some friends. It will be a good trip...it may be my last for a while. It all depends on the future....

I have a the same dream every night...its the typical American dream...you know, Ryan and I are together and happy...living in a nice place and having the jobs we want....just peace and happiness. It is a dream...I want it to be reality but who knows what is in store for both of us...its up to us to decide. America has its faults...but never until I left here did I expect to miss it so much. As much as we are criticized...there really is no place better to live and to grow. I feel like anything is possible here...something I couldn't feel abroad.

America is home...and its the feeling of success that keeps me going.

To be blunt distance sucks...

I have friends that are currently distanced from their boyfriends or girlfriends...most are a few hours away and I know it is really hard for them. Currently I am over 3,000 miles from mine...not just a city, a state, or country, but a whole continent with a massive ocean in between. Most long distance relationships don't work...its really difficult. We are 5 hours apart in time difference and that makes communication difficult. I have to schedule time to video chat or talk and its not fun. If we are lucky we visit each other every 3 months...well thats the plan. Again is isn't fun. In fact it just sucks.

I hate it. Everyday I get a little sad thinking about how long it may be before I see him again. It has been 3 weeks since I left and for me it feels like months...it really does. Sometimes I worry that I will forget what he looks like or sounds like and sometimes I feel that we may grow apart or bicker because of the lack of communication and affection.

In general right now is a very scary time in my life. My relationship is in a delicate balance and I am forced to try and live everyday like its not. I am told by my family and friends to be strong and I am trying my hardest...its hard sometimes to keep the faith. I love him very much and he knows. I just wish sometimes I could hear it too...

Men are not as emotional as we are and that is definitely not easy.

I have to keep the faith that soon I will see him and everything will be rekindled like we had never been apart in the first place.