I have friends that are currently distanced from their boyfriends or girlfriends...most are a few hours away and I know it is really hard for them. Currently I am over 3,000 miles from mine...not just a city, a state, or country, but a whole continent with a massive ocean in between. Most long distance relationships don't work...its really difficult. We are 5 hours apart in time difference and that makes communication difficult. I have to schedule time to video chat or talk and its not fun. If we are lucky we visit each other every 3 months...well thats the plan. Again is isn't fun. In fact it just sucks.
I hate it. Everyday I get a little sad thinking about how long it may be before I see him again. It has been 3 weeks since I left and for me it feels like months...it really does. Sometimes I worry that I will forget what he looks like or sounds like and sometimes I feel that we may grow apart or bicker because of the lack of communication and affection.
In general right now is a very scary time in my life. My relationship is in a delicate balance and I am forced to try and live everyday like its not. I am told by my family and friends to be strong and I am trying my hardest...its hard sometimes to keep the faith. I love him very much and he knows. I just wish sometimes I could hear it too...
Men are not as emotional as we are and that is definitely not easy.
I have to keep the faith that soon I will see him and everything will be rekindled like we had never been apart in the first place.
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