So it is superbowl sunday! Hard to believe it has been a year since my Saints won their first superbowl...its been a year since a lot of things. A year ago, I was a mess...fighting with Ryan and fighting with myself on what to do in life.
A year later, I must say 2011 is soo much better. As much as I miss little bits of my time in New Romney...really the only way I could be happy there is if Ryan spent 100% of his time with me...and well thats just stupid. Here I have more than him to keep me company. I have sunshine, flowers, the beach, friends, family (as much as they drive me mental), and the American dream. All this is keeping me going. Winter will be gone soon...the groundhog didn't see his shadow and well he is always right. It is so nice to have beautiful weather again and I look forward to wearing shorts, flip flops and a bikini again.
I had a soppy day yesterday...sobbed on the phone to Ryan about how much I miss him but still deep down counting the days until I would see him again. I go back to Charlotte tomorrow and I couldn't be happier...my new life is there now. I have an interview on Tuesday for a job I really want...hopefully it pays what I want too.
Spring is coming and with it comes a new smile on my face...May will be here soon and I will have something to look forward to. I have decided to go to England for my graduation in July. Ill look into flights once I have a job. I am excited to go in summer and I get to see Ryan and some friends. It will be a good trip...it may be my last for a while. It all depends on the future....
I have a the same dream every night...its the typical American dream...you know, Ryan and I are together and happy...living in a nice place and having the jobs we want....just peace and happiness. It is a dream...I want it to be reality but who knows what is in store for both of us...its up to us to decide. America has its faults...but never until I left here did I expect to miss it so much. As much as we are criticized...there really is no place better to live and to grow. I feel like anything is possible here...something I couldn't feel abroad.
America is home...and its the feeling of success that keeps me going.
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