I have a second interview tomorrow. I am excited because I really need this job. I need for more reasons than the average person. This is the key to my future, not just career wise but relationship wise as well. I need this job so I have stability for Ryan to come.
I love him, and I am absolutely terrified to lose him. I know I could live without him in my life, I could move on and survive, but I don't want to. I want to share everything with him. I need to establish a solid system so he can come here and so he can start fresh too.
I'm really afraid of the unknown at this point. I don't like not knowing what will come next. Everyday I wake up and hope that things will get better each day...and that I won't receive bad news.
Life is a scary thought...and growing up is even scarier.
Off to New Orleans for a week on Saturday. Hopefully seeing my friends and family will bring my spirits up and distract me for a bit.
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I know how you feel. Yes, Zach and I are getting married but we have to find jobs and a place to live and right now things just look scary. I hate the unknown. Not only is growing up terrifying, but damn, why does it take so long? We're almost 25 shouldn't we be there yet? I hope you get the job :)
I am in the same boat. Me and my husband have to live seperate, and it's like ok, will we have the money to move up there this month? Will they take the house this month? Will we have enough money to pay all the bill? What about our dogs will we have the money to pay the deposits to get them up there? Will David be able to get off probation and go where he wants? I am a planner and this not having things planned out and not knowing how and when we are gonna do things, is killing me
For now I have decided to put it in God's hands and have faith that he will do what's good!
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